I dont want to .

I dont want to stop caring about it all .
I dont want to see you unhappy .
I dont want to give up on my job .
I dont want to wish one day we'll look at eachother and smile cause we have eachother .
I dont want to wish that one day it'll be all better .
What I do want is for that day to be today .

Pretty Damn Good Movie !

So I saw "Law Abiding Citizen " today and ,
Movie was like 12x better then I thought it would be ! LOL swear , and getting to hang with some people I havent seen in a while was pretty nice too . Ate at Gein's Chinese Cuisine and then went to do some stuff . Afterwards I went to McDonalds where my manager gave me free selects . Mai is awesome =] . But yeah , went to walmart after that and Eugene couldn't return his game , what a shame . And then home , where I am now .

Overall ? Great day
Taicho Out .

So yeah . work .

Wow , work as of late has ben hectic and frustrating at the same time . But thankfully I have things to look forward to at the end of the day . For example , friends who wanna hangout afterwards or come visit as well as someone texting right before work everyday to say "have fun at work :) " . Things like that I really appreciate .

But yeah! Theres this manager , that shall not be named , that I fell does not do her job as a manager . She fails on such an epic level that I much rather follow the orders of my fellow crew members . As I said before , "she couldn't manage to lead a fly to shit " . And I stand by those words . And im sure Cedric and Andy feel the same way .

All I can say is , how the fuck did a McChicken bun and my hat collide while I was wearing my hat ? answer ? Dumb-ass-manager.

Parents just don't make any god damn sense right now .

So today, I went on errands and job hunted as I always did this whole week , and the thought of bowling with friends sounded fun. So naturally, being the decent and obeying son I am, I call my parents asking if it was ok that I be a little late and hang with friends at Country Club Lanes. I get my angry mother on the phone , telling me that I hang out too damn much and that I should only be driving to work and school, and that friends aren't important. How nice huh ? You try to be considerate and they take it throw it in your face. On top of that, they compare me to people that didn't need to be brought up, said anything I tell them can't be believed, and that the fact that i'm good at anything but school doesn't mean shit. Heres the funny part, I got my car taken away because I followed their rules! >:o what kind of stupid ass shit is that! Because I came home on time if not early, I get punished! I'll say this once, PARENTS JUST DON'T MAKE ANY GOD DAMN SENSE SOMETIMES>=[ I'm sure most of this will blow over as soon as I get a job , I hope. They also said that without a degree, no one will respect me, not even my friends . And that my friends will just sever any bonds with me if they get one and I don't . They really think lowly of my friends now. I don't even wanna know whats next in store for me with them . All I know is that when shit was bad today , three people were there making me feel better . I thank you guys , cause if not, I'd have a hole in my wall right now, or so I think .

So, in the end I was called a liar by my mom, no good til I have a degree by my stepdad, and inconsiderate for coming home on time . :] lifes just great isn't it ? no sarcasm either. My friends make it all better . :o

Overall? Pissed, mad , sad , happy, and smiley :]
out. ~Taicho.

P.S.~ "24/7 :]" I still want that milktea and those massages (:

Reaching for that one star and doing it without regret.

Today, I thought I had a great day. A breakthrough so to speak. Until I came to realization that what I was living in wasn't what I wanted . A slight few differences is what I ask for. They say those who aren't grateful for what they have now, don't deserve more then what they have right then. But I wonder, is it so wrong to wish for more ? To wish that you could reach that star and touch it, fully knowing it might be impossible ? I'm going to venture and say no to that question. But what if we reach for it, and fall flat on our face for trying ? Is it worth the risk ? Worth that chance of hurting ourselves ? Yeah, in my case it is, because I have a lot to gain if i succeed and I don't lose all that much if I don't.

"The last thing you want to feel is regret . You don't want to come home, lay on your bed, and feel regret asking yourself ' why ' when you fully know its because you didn't try"- John "OreO" Tran

Overall ? Enlightened.
out. ~Taicho

Cars,friends,and promises

So i'm getting my car tomorrow! Can't wait! First thing ima do is wash that sucker til it shines like no other! :] I realize that I need to be very selective of those I drive around . Some people will appreciate it and will show me that appreciation accordingly . Others I know will appreciate it and won't have to say it . I think that this year, I gained knowledge that was imperitive to my survival in life . My friends mean a lot to me and I hope to keep those that have been by my side through the good, the bad , and the simply ridiculous. So here goes :

Thanks Angie, for all the advice, the talks, the laughs and great times we had . I've only known you a short time and yet you've done so much for me including telling me when I was being stupid LOL. You made CRC that much more bearable and huong lan that more great! :] whether it was jammin' to booty music or those inside jokes, you always made me feel better on those days . So thanks. :]

Jack, Sotaicho, you understood how I felt all those times when shit came to worst haha. You made me grateful for the little things I have in life and that I should value them more and not take them for granted like I have . Girls were a pain in the ass for both of us but hell, we just laughed it off most of the time. :D So many thanks to you good sir . Much appreciation indeed .Divine intervention! haha

Tami! my fukutaicho! You're awesome beyond belief. You always got where I was coming from and didn't judge me when situations changed . Although I don't say it enough to you, thank you. You were that person that just "ai yahh"ed me I was being dumb >< so much appreciated to that . Just one last promise kay? after that we'll do what we gotta .

To those I didn't mention, you know who you are and im thankful for everything .

Devona, ima keep that promise so better keep your schedule free :]

Overall? More appreciative .
out. ~Taicho

Maybe

So i'm listening to this song by Jay Sean, its called Maybe and I realize that it reflects a alot on things that have been happening to me . I miss my ex like crazy and after a wierd dream I had of her , I recieved a text this morning asking how i've been . Its nice to know that someone still cares after the storm, so to speak . But the lyrics of Maybe that have been getting to me were "Maybe its true that im caught up on you, maybe theres a chance that you're stuck on me too. Maybe im wrong and its all in my head, Maybe we're afraid of words we both hadn't said." like I really want you , I think I need you , baby I miss you, and im thinking of you.

A wise friend of mine once told me something that stuck to me." Its alot like you're so used to someone being there in your life, that once they're gone it can never be the same ."

Overall ? missing an ex sucks :[
out. ~Taicho.